Life is a Journey

My Dad

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 15:56:30 GMT

MY DAD HAS CANCER

I am sitting here at St. Lukes in the day surgery waiting room as he has surgery to remove a large sarcoma from his thigh. It is entwind in his muscles and veins so he will be losing a significant amount of use of his leg. Right now they don't know if it has spread at all or not because he has some small spots in his lungs that are so minuit that they can't even do a biopsy to find out what they are, so we have to wait and see about those.

Right now we are taking everything one day at a time, and we don't know what tomorrow will bring us.

Rich People Suck

Thu, 13 Nov 2008 02:24:57 GMT

So the girl I am doing my internship with is rich and it drives me insane. Her mom and dad are buying a car because she got an internship, oh and when she gets a job they are going to buy her a house, a house. That is crazy. Oh and she won't decide on a car, I'm sorry if someone said that they were going to buy me a car any car that I wanted I would be choosing that car that day. She has never had to work a day in her life, when she started the internship her friends were made fun of her because they told her that they didn't think she knew how to work. It is so irritating.

Ultrasound

Mon, 03 Nov 2008 22:04:07 GMT

So tomorrow I go in for the ultrasound and I should now more about what is going on in a couple of days then, so hopefully by the end of the week I will know what is happening. Oh and I get to be NPO (nothing by mouth) tomorrow until the ultrasound. I hate tests. I don't know if I should be nervous or not. We will see what happens.

Sucky Day

Sun, 02 Nov 2008 22:05:04 GMT

So I was going to go in today to put in an extra day at my internship and get the chance to get some more experience in, but when I got up this morning I was feeling pretty shitty, and I have been feeling pretty shitty for a couple of weeks. So I decided I was going to go back to the doctor this morning and make sure nothing more was going on then a simple sinus infection. While it turns out there is more going on and now I get to have an abdominal ultrasound because as the doctor put it "you have knots in your abdomen." What the hell is that supposed to mean. I have knots. So now I have to have an ultrasound. Should I be worried, could it be something bad. I hate when doctors are so elusive to what they are saying.

Sick

Sun, 26 Oct 2008 16:46:08 GMT

So yesterday I woke up with a horrible migrane and I ended up being stuck in bed most of the morning, and then it went away finally. This morning I have a small migrane and it is really bothering me because it makes my eyes all foggy and hard to look at anything. But the headache isn't horrible so I guess I can live with that. I already took a bunch of ibuprofens and stuff so hopefully that will help it, but I hate being sick.

I Hate Computers

Sun, 26 Oct 2008 02:20:17 GMT

I hate computers, so I bought a new computer less than a week ago and I had to already take it back in because the shipment of HP's that they got in had a flaw with their internet explorer browser. So after they tried to fix it, unsuccessfully I finally told them that I wanted a different computer for the same price, and now I have a Sony VAIO. So hopefully this one will work for me, otherwise I am giving up on the whole computer thing.

Oh and it really sucks because I have been sick all week, and I haven't felt like doing anything so now I am behind on stuff.

Life Sucks!!!!!

Sick

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 00:47:54 GMT

So I think I am coming down with something because my chest hurts and I feel all stuffed up. But I don't have time to be sick because I have to get all my hours done before the end of November so I can be home in time for my graduation. So I can't be sick. We will see what happens, hopefully it ends up being nothing.

New Laptop

Sun, 19 Oct 2008 19:59:35 GMT

So my old laptop went capoot this weekend so I had to go out and get a new one, which is sad because I loved my little dell, it did everything that I needed it to do and was a great size for me. Now I have gone bigger and it's a little odd. It's an HP with a full keyboard which is odd because I'm not used to having so much room for the keys so I have to get used to typing again on this type of keyboard and there is a number pad too, not just the numbers on top of the letters. So that is odd to me. But so far I like it, I mean it's a new toy to play with and I have to learn all about it to get used to it.

Anxiety Attacks

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 21:26:00 GMT

I've started having my anxiety attacks again which makes me so mad because I can't stand it. I hate waking up in the middle of the night feeling like I can't breath and like I am going to throw up. I hate the feeling of dread coming over me every time I have to go to sleep not knowing if I am going to have another attack that night. It really sucks but somehoe I will get through it one way or another.

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 00:29:46 GMT

So it always seems that whenever I feel like I am doing good with everything that has happened I feel like it all falls apart. My brain just doesn't seem to be able to handle all the things that go through it on a daily basis, shit even a moment's basis. My head seems so jumbled that I can't think for myself anymore.

John Norris

Tue, 14 Oct 2008 01:17:10 GMT

So I was watching One Tree Hill today and saw the name John Norris and was like that name is familiar. So I look it up and it's the same guy that used to do MTV news. I thought that was strange, he is now a writer and a producer for One Tree Hill.

PS2 Going Missing

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 20:42:16 GMT

So one of the PS2's went missing off the ped's floor sometime this weekend when none of the Child Life Specialist's where there and it had seven popular teen movies locked into the case with it. It's somewhere in the hospital floating about most likely because someone would have noticed someone leaving the hospital with a large cart with a tv on top. But it's frustrating because now were missing all those movies until we find it and we have lot's of teens on the floor right now wanting to watch those.

Life

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 20:16:08 GMT

So I stopped updating this journal because I found out some people were trying to spy on me because they weren't happy that they didn't know what was happening in my life anymore. Some people need to learn they are not part of my life anymore and they will never be. There actions have decided this for them. They have ruined a family that used to be close knit and they have teared it apart at the seams. When you do that you can't expect people to respect you anymore. So I have decided to start to update this again because I can't let them ruin my life anymore. I need to be who I am and allow myself to continue to heal.

Funk

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 18:42:04 GMT

So I am in a serious funk right now were I don't want to do anything. I mean I'm not doing my homework, I don't want to go to class, I don't want to work. Anything. All I feel like doing is sitting in my bed and watch stupid sitcoms and stupid movies. This is bad, I need to get out of this funk right now because I have to much due and not enough time to do it.

Rough Night

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 04:48:40 GMT

So I should be sleeping right now, but I'm obviously not. The last couple of days stuff seems to be hitting me a lot harder than usual, and I just can't seem to stop crying. Maybe I am finally letting everything hit me that is going on, I mean come on I almost freaked out when I found out my father was going out drinking and he was going to be driving home. It scared the crap out of me, what if I was to loose him too. I don't think I could make it through that.
I have pretty much cut myself off from my mom's side of the family, I have decided they aren't worth my time anymore and I don't care what they have to say. I really only talk to Joey and Rachael now a days. Which is so hard to fathom because I used to be so close to my moms side of the family. But the things they have pulled since my mom has died has made me hate them more and more each day. I don't care what anyone say's Stephanie Harling is a huge B****, and I will be happy the day she is dead. I know you are thinking that is harsh, but the lies she has told and continues to tell and get caught in is too much and she doesn't deserve to be on this earth.

Another great week

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 01:01:23 GMT

So this week I lost 3.6 pounds, bringing my grand total up to 6.8 pounds which makes me so happy. But in the back of my mind I can feel the negativity of I have to have a bad week somewhere. But I am trying to ignore it and keep on task of doing the weight watchers thing, because I want to look great and skinny for once in my life.

I'm a genius

Tue, 09 May 2006 00:01:37 GMT

That is hillarious!!!

Bucks

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 15:17:22 GMT

BUCKS WIN!!!!

The Bucks won, I couldn't believe it, but it was expected because whenever my cousin comes to a Piston game here the bucks win. But it was so much fun.

I'm Still Here

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 17:21:49 GMT

So I haven't updated in awhile, and I don't know why, I mean I check this thing pretty much everyday, but I guess I just don't have enough time to do everything.
I made it through Christmas, it was tough but I did it. The one year anniversary is coming up in one week, that's going to be hard, but I'll be around people that I know care. It will also help that I'll be at Disney World for that week so I'll be busy doing stuff. Something that I need to do or I'll go insane.
I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday and the new year is blessed!

World Aids Day

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 03:55:43 GMT

So today is December 1, and it is world aids day a day to remind people of this horrible disease and to remember all that have parished because of it. I lost my Uncle Mike to Aids my senior year of high school. We knew it was coming but it was still a devastating blow, especially since he didn't feel safe enough to tell us that he had it. We all knew he did, but he couldn't say it to us. So on this day remember all the ones that are out there with this terrible disease and remember there are plenty of ways to help. A great one is Camp Heartland, a camp for kids and there siblings who are aflicted by the virus to go to camp and have a time of normalcy and not worry about what people are thinking.

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 20:40:29 GMT

you're soda! everyone thinks you're hot and nobody
really gets mad at you.

Which Outsiders Boy Are You?
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Ponyboy Curtis - You're deep and dreamy and always
looking at sunsets. You are rather quiet, but
know how to protect yourself. You love all your
friends and understand your enemy easily.

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greaser-----you play fair and even though people
think your trouble, your actually a good
person.

the outsiders(greaser or soc)
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SodaPop Curtis.

Everyone loves you. Girl or boy. Your happy go
lucky and your always grinning. Your a hit with
the opposite sex. Go you. You love your
siblings but are always put in the middle. You
couldn't sit still to save your life, but that
crazy grin will probably get you out of
trouble.

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Two-Bit Matthews: His real name is Keith. He has
the nickname of Two-Bit because he always has
to put his two bits(cents) and have his say.
Two-Bit is the joker of the Greasers gang. Even
though he is over 18 years of age, he still
goes to high school but just for the fun of it.

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Ten Months

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 23:43:42 GMT

It has been ten months since my mom died. Almost a year, a year of hell and lose that I will never forget. A time when I have had to learn to deal with one of the greates tragedies in my life and hopefully the only one I will ever have to deal with. A time when I lost someone that meant the world to me and was my link to that side of the family. Something that has been seriously diminished since she has died. She had so many stories that she hadn't told me yet, so much that I needed to learn. But I will never get it now. As the holidays come up I am trying to figure out what I am going to do with this all. I don't know if I can make it through all of this. The first holidays without my mom, I don't know if I will be able to handle it. We'll see.

Stupid Quizes

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 14:21:38 GMT

You scored as Peter Pan. Your alter ego is Peter Pan. You are a child at heart. Anything you believe is possible, and you never want to grow up.

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Peter Pan

88%

Ariel

81%

Goofy

75%

Cinderella

63%

Sleeping Beauty

56%

The Beast

50%

Donald Duck

50%

Pinocchio

44%

Snow White

25%

Cruella De Ville

Which Disney Character is your Alter Ego?
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Your 80s Heartthrob Is

John Stamos

Who's Your 80's Heartthrob?

Are You a Child of the 80's? Take a look at this list. If you can identify with more than half of them, you are a child of the 80's.

You know what "Sike" means.
You know the profound meaning of "Wax on, Wax off".
You know that another name for a keyboard is a "Synthesizer".
You were only cool if you hung out at the Roller Rink and actually knew how to skate.
You can sing the McDonald's Big Mack Filet-o-fish, quarter pounder, French Fry song while jump roping.
You wore 3-8 different colored socks in layers and thought that the more you could wear the cooler you were.
You know who Mr. T is.
You actually believed for a minute that K.I.T. (The night rider) actually was real.
You know who Fat Albert is.
You wore fluorescent, neon clothing.
You could break dance, or wish you could.
You wanted to be The Incredible Hulk for Halloween.
You believed that "By the power of Greyskull, you HAD the power!"
Partying "like it's 1999" seemed SO far away.
You thought that Transformers were more than meets the eye
You wanted to be on Star Search.
You can remember Michael Jackson when he was black.
You wore a banana clip at some point during your youth.
You remember the garbage pail kids, and owned some.
You knew what Willis was "talkin' 'bout."
You HAD to have your MTV.
You always wondered why Tootie always wore those skates.
You actually thought "Dirty Dancing" was a REALLY good movie.
Your all time favorite movie was Footloose and you actually thought that Kevin Bacon was HOT in it!!!
You remember when ATARI was a state of the art video game system.
You own any cassettes.
You were led to believe that in the year 2000 we'd all be living on the moon.
You remember and/or owned any of the Care Bear Glass collection from Pizza Hut or any other stupid collection they came out with.
Poltergeist freaked you out
You carried your lunch to school in a Gremlins or an ET lunch box.
You have pondered why Smurfette was the ONLY female smurf.
You know what leg warmers are and probably had a pair.
You wore biker shorts underneath a short skirt and felt stylish.
You had a Swatch Watch with the Swatch Guard.
You thought UTFOs "Roxanne, Roxanne" song was the bomb!
You remember when Saturday Night Live was funny.
You had Wonder Woman or Superman underoos.
You know what a "Push Up" ice cream is.
You had to come in the house when the street lights came on.

The Cutest Thing

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 18:36:07 GMT

So yesterday was halloween as everyone knows, while the preschoolers came over and went trick or treating on the college part of the campus. It was the cutest thing ever. We had all these little kids dressed up in costumes walking around going from office to office getting candy. It was adorable.

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 18:27:34 GMT

Your Hair Should Be Pink

Hyper, insane, and a boatload of fun.
You're a traveling party that everyone loves to follow.

What's Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

You Failed 8th Grade Math

Oh no, you only got 5/10 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Math?

How You Life Your Life

You tend to deprive yourself of things you crave, for your own good.
You say whatever is on your mind. Other people's reactions don't phase you.
Your friends tend to be a as quirky as you are - which is saying a lot!
Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

How Do You Live Your Life?